August 30, 2007

Perspective and Pendulum Peril

In response to As Seen on TV – Not Unicoreman said... “I guess you’re a glass half empty kind of person.”

He goes on to write a very good long term perspective that points out a dozen or so test a day are a blessing. That’s an outstanding point.

As for half empty, well on occasions I maybe, reading back I see that in that post. I hope that is not the tenor of the totality of this blog.

My intent was not to see testing as half empty, rather to look at one aspect of what the years of testing have done to me.

Much of life is swinging about a balance. Lord knows trying to find the balance without too much swinging is what diabetes care is about. The point is to can have a life and not just live. I am all in favor of that and I think for the most part am fairly good at it.

I have noticed some stages in diabetes care. Early on I struggled to remember to check blood sugar before disciplining. Guess what? Most of the time they were acting poorly their BG was well out of range. The point of As Seen… was that that pendulum had swung past center and my reactions had become to check blood not to caress the child.

That diabetes driven change in me sucks and I am trying to fix it. This side of diabetes is something I don’t see much conversation on. Well other than at FFL.

For me the big take away from FFL was it is not just a numbers game. It’s a parenting game.

2 comments:

A Journey of a Mom said...

This isn't the same thing, but I still wanted to share. Last year Julia started kindergarten. I'd go home, or run errands around town for those 2 and a half hours each day. I would wonder the whole time if she was in range or low (she had a lot of lows last year at school) and the first thing when I saw my sweet daughter wasn't a question asking about her day, but her numbers at school. It changed that part of me, diabetes did. I wasn't doing my normal mom thing, and asking about all of the fun things, and hearing about the letter A, or how they rolled down the hill at recess, or how so and sos dad brought in a special treat, or the new game she learned in P.E. It was instinct to ask all of that before diabetes, after it was instinct to want to know the numbers. I did catch on quickly, thanks to my other children, and I did retrain myself to not ask about the numbers, just pick up the meter weekly, and keep in touch with the school nurse, and get back to hearing about all of the fun of the day.

I have to say weather you are half full or half empty there are just certain moments that diabetes hits you like a brick wall. It is something that has taken me many months to accept, that I will never "get over it" in every aspect. No matter how far we have came, it will never be enough until there is a true cure. My daughter sleeps on her hands, BTW. She wont sleep through most bg checks. I know it is painful for her, and I understand your post, and am right there with you.
Jamie

Bennet said...

Yes it is exactly the same thing.

'cause the thing ain't the thing the head game is the thing.

The challange for a diabetic parent is to learn the diabetes and then to learn it isn't the diabetes. I am coming up on four or five years with one kid and a year less with the other and I am activily trying to learn that the thing ain't the thing. Lettig the kids know you love them is the thing and NONE of the D care crap counts as showing them you love them.

In fact diabetes care counts against you with the other kids.